"akhirnya..aku kembali juga"..terima kasih....

em...munkin dah terlalu lama tak menulis..beku otak dan mind..terasa nak berbahasa ibunda...maaf...terlalu cepat masa berlalu sampaikan aku tak tersedar makin banyak yang aku tinggalkan dalam hidup ni..masa,,sahabat..kenangan...boleh ke dapat semula semu tu?? pernah juga tertanya..."sapa aku ni di atas bumi tuhan?"...pelik kan....knapa aku..dan bukan kau yang rasa hidup aku..selama ni aku melihat dunia dari kaca mata aku...tak pernah terlintas mahu bertanya pada orang disebelah.."apa yang mata kau lihat?".. terlalu lama aku berjalan di bumi ni..makin jauh aku terasa aku dah pergi..masa mengejar aku...dan aku berlari mengelak dia...maaf....semalam ada erbaca satu ayat.."sahabat adalah anda sendiri"...em....pelik...tapi mungkin penulis nya tahu maksud ayat itu..bagi aku.."sahabat adalah mereka"...

sadis......enak lagu ini...sedih....kesian...macam2....ada......(clishe kan??)

aku harap...aku mampu terima dugaan tuhan..amin,,,,,

aku berubah dari..satu..ke sejuta..tapi..aku tetap menjadi aku..harap2 la....

terima kasih kawan....dan kamu lah sebab mengapa aku trus d sni...Sayang sangat pada kamu....

What cant Tere be Two lover?

life cant be as difficult as it can be describe by human..thus,for me i think, people starting to question "why it cant be more than one?"..em..well...last weekend,i went to this one place call LLOca Moka House..its a coffe house and meet with my fellow friends and share stories on how life have been so far...so many stuff happen lately i guess?? and one of my friend suddenly said "im actually in love with a guy,,but..i got a boyfriend..em,,should i leav him for the other one?" why cant it be two i asked..n she said.."no..loyalty is what love meant to be".n i asked back "but why you can fall for the other one,if loyalty is your game?" she cometo a point of silent..n she barely spoken to me..just smiling,,,,n said "well..i cant be two when its only involving me and a guy"

i told her that.."life is worth of trying..dont be so stupid in forcing yourself to catch a flying bird..yes,u may get it..but it wont be the same..being two in a time.,,is what life want us to be.,.to choose...to find..to create what we want..loyalty?? hell with that...nothing is loyalt unless both of you guys really knw what it mean.."

"go and love the other guy..he deserve to have you also..and please..never ever try to keep a person that wsnt yours in your hand..let them brief...n cheerish the life.."

well..if love can speak..this is what it would say

"hell with the loyalty for me,cause i need more lover to make me more merier"

aPPrEciAtiOn !!

Diz post is quite personal act.juz wanna share wif u guyz wut I felt few days ago.my birthday was on 13th sept.i nvr tot dat my birthday diz year would be da great n meaningful one.it began on 12th sept nite,when they celebrated me wif a chocolate cake and it was like damn sweet as they kept singing and a smile could be seen on every single people’s face.i enjoyed dat nite even tough I got ‘colgate’ rite on my face.huh was it a joke? Yup I guess so..dat nite was away beautifully without my roommates..then, the happiness continued until tmrw when my bestfriend eva in secondary school from UMP came wif a rent car and took me out..breaking fasting outside..at TAJ..since I wasn’t meet him afta we left MARA KAYTEE,of cos I miss dat moment..afta a long time kept msgg via phone..no live communication..we met at last..everything was fine except for dat ‘disturbia’..huhuh…I got more than 3 presents these time n the most thing dat I could nvr 4get is a shirt-given by faiz n jery..feeling of appreciation is still remains in my heart n don’t noe when it will fade away..hope it wont..i appreciate every single thing they did n of cos I would nvr let myself to lose any friends of mine..coz ‘one goes,no more’..in friendship,we couldn’t expect everythg would be like we are hoping for n sometimes it would be like what we are avoiding to..thats da nature..the more we want to prevent,,the more they get closer..so we need to be fully-prepared n alwys ready for da things to happen..it mite not be tmrw but I mite be next week…it mite not next year..but it mite be one month later..nobodys know..only HIM know..we cant be perfect but we can try to be perfect…we cant be zero-flaws..but we can be a flaw..dats the thing..once u confront wif self-conflict,,ask urself..’are u matured enuf’..?...if da answer is yes,it means u’re not dat matured but u’re on the rite track in achieving the maturity..but if da answer is no,it means u got to change within the time…or else…u mite feel the consequences…wuteva it is..remember pls appreciate ur FRIENDs in ur own ways…

proud to be a man

living in the world where gender is being argue as a man identity..i found that people cant be open when discussing upon this matter. being gay,trans or even heterosexual wasnt an issue or arguement..be what you are in the sense of what you beleive is the need o todays sosial life. you cant say elton john is bad because hes a gay? judging people based on what they like is STUPID..im not making a statement but to be honest FUCK UP with all those people who argue on proper sexual orientation..Sexual needs is a personal matter of a person..let them be what hey want..stop being prejudis and discriminate.....a poet once said.."love is blind and do the lover,and never be blind as a love, to love a lover love.i can love who ever i need, even a elf of a broken dream.and i kiss my self in me, and i love the person i see"

stop condenming people..

what is da purpose of having as an islamic blog if it is just for the first impression and outter appearance? lets go back to the aims of islam itself..islam is a simple and perfect religion..it is depends on the people to describe and bring it to the next stage..to have better understanding link to dutafareast.blogspot.com ... once u know him..u will understand what i meant..

sUdDeN sAdNeSS

for the first time of my life as a blogger,i wanna write bout a sad sad thing.,diz story began last nite when my friend (jerky,not a real name) texted me saying dat he is goin' out from UiTM..i dont mind if he is really going...but i really concern of his money.,,oh my god..
is diz the dark side of mine? well..sometimes money brings us closer..dats da only thing i love bout jerky..for the past,it would be yes..but know,i realise dat money is not everything...there is something dat open up my eyes a litle bit bigger and my heart started to think twice..hehe...for those who are in the same shoes as jerky,think about this matter diz way..dont think too much on negativity...juz think bout da good effects that could be brought by changing course...and yeah it is undeniable dat sometimes parents know us better and sometimes decision made by them are damn correct and futureable...im gonna stop here...the day is raining die hard to day non-stop..im going to ECM....to break my fasting there...spending da last time wif jerky...hehehe...diz article mite be fake coz i dont know what i wrote...huhuh...

FoOtbALL , FUtsAL 'N' dEbAtE

what makes people love to play football ? why people are willing to pay rm5 and end up wif nothing more than tired and exhausted? i dunno..seriously...im a geek nerd boy that never ever played futsal even for once in a lifetime...im a normal human being that damn worst in playing football..what i like is just being a debater..dats all..

"why do you play football and futsal ? "
"juz for fun..and self-satisfaction"
"what do you get from diz activity?"
"erm..nothing..better skill though..healthy body"
"erm..dont you fell tired ?"

"quite but it is fun"
"is it worth? u pay for rm5 and u end up wif no victory?"
"yup..i feel relieved after playing"

huh...dats what people would say..after 18years being in diz world..i never thought dat there is a good thing by playing football or futsal..until now,i feel like waste and useless..i cant even play dat game although all men play well in dat sport..am i a true man? i asked my teacher bout diz..guess what my teacher said..he said 'hey..people are different..some people mite love sports and some mite not..it is depends to individual to set his mind as a reasonable man..'..i went home and thought,,
yap..he is true..so i tried to be like others..i went to play football one day..what happened is dat i could even get a chance to kick or even to touch a ball? while others were strugling for ball all-out,i sat at the right side of the field and started to think..what does people wanna achieve in diz game? yerp..i know..they juz wanna get da ball,set a goal and kick...GOAL !!!! all people are screAming when the ball hit its goal..then,,i started to be myself..do not go to the field anymore..juz relaxing my mind during the leisure time..i tried and keep trying to find what talent do i have in me..if people can play football when i dont..it must be that i can do something that people cant do..then i discovered..i could argue wif people on certain matters quite well and i could speak as well..i made a first step by joining a debate club..it was fun and everything went smooth..till i managed to represent my school for debate..while others were at the field running after a ball..i was at the room searching for a new material to be debated.. my life and others were quite different..seriously but i never felt i had been left apart by the community..thank god..there's people who can actually understand the human cycle and phscology..up until now im still a debater and keep debating for the college and it mite be stopped in a short time..why? i ll tell u later..let me share what is actually debate is all about and what benefits do debate bring to the people..basically debate is all about arguing..u can argue and u can speak..done!! the first step of being a debater is fulfilled..next what u ve to do is you should ve critical thinkings and creative mind..what i meant is dat u should ve a better thinking and your points must be logical and can be accepted by a reasonable man..done with it..you re now attain the last step of being a debater..u can read others mind..u can think rapidly..u can manipulate things..settle..all steps have been fulfilled..now is about ur self..whether u re brave and confident enough to speak and argue in front of others ? diz is not quite hard to obtain...juz keep this in mind..others people are damn stupid except you...there is no one can challenge as you are the great among the best...with all of these..realise it or not..u can surely be a great debater one day..by debating,it is actually can help you in your writting as well as your speaking..not only dat,it helps you in thinking fastly and logically..and worst come to worst...it teaches u how to manipulate and be a great supernova LIAR !! Hehehehehe... sometimes lying is not always bad..think about it people..

kFc oUt Of stOcK !!!

what the hell is happening ??? the most oustanding fastfood restaurants are now lack of foods.....is dat true ?? EcM ??
" may i have festive combo plz ? "
" yap...anything to add on ? "
"no,thats all"
"sorry sir,..no more bun left...no more bun coeslaw..
may i substitute it with kentang putar ? "
erk ?? lets us ban kfc....
my advice is if you afraid of getting loss....
stop doing bussiness...
we the malaysian need full-supplied of foods....

make things simple and enjoy !!

people love to make things difficult and somehow turns something from A to Z....from 1 to 100...
they think dat by doing diz kind of things it will make ur activities would be great and amazing...
but hey !! im not in diz track...im a guy who always make things simple..as i am lazy person....wakaka...
seriously,,if u know me..u ll know..somehow my friends get angry as they think dat im taking things for granted...dude,,,dats my style..i cant change if u want me to change....but i will change if the nature forces me to do dat..lets look at diz example....my teacher asks me to think da answer of this question...
' why do people want to eat chickens ? '....

MY FRIENDS' ANSWERS...
-they are hungry
-they love chickens compared to others
-they are alergic to others food except for chicken
-they only have enough money to buy chicken
-chicken is more satisfying

BUT MY ANSWER IS....
-becoz they want to eat chicken...thats all....

now u can see how my thinking and mind is....
make things simple and easy....it will not waste ur time...
but it will save ur time..it will make ur job easy in many aspects..
people will easily understand urs....people will get ur points in flow...
people will love to read and easy once instead of the difficult once,...
the most crucial once is ur message or ur mission of doing something
can be achieved...the ways u do it it is not important.
u have great vocabulary...but people can hardly understand ur points and
need to be read more than twice to actually grab ur message..whats da points of
doing diz ? it is nothing.......i dont think that there is any people who love the
hardest and difficult once....if there is any people who love it....i dont know
what to say..but u better change...................................................................

-chuBBy dA gReaT...-

'i wish i've no probs at all'

do i wish a bad thing ? do i wish for something that is hard to be a reality ? or do i juz made myself look stupid by hoping and admiring something like a fairy tale ?
but it is not wrong to be like this rite ? i got too many probs lately and somehow i felt running away from others and isolating myself from my social group...........is dat a good thing to do ?
HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...FRiendsss....

Yea rite.....
the world may no longer be samson and delilah....it may not even be pretty kitty wonderland anymore....for all i know,all there is rite now is just another fierce tragic death like macbeth and also Joan of Arc...trust me.im not in the happiest moment rite now..my problem is..im so sick of the word Bestfriends with a capital B.....y?...because...some people may just say that 'hey,,ur so nice...hey...we have a lot in common...hey...lets be bestfriends...'.....duh....it hurts sometimes when we actually think that we are in the nicest place of all heaven when it is suddenly a flaming hell....i do not know why im spitting everything all out but seriously im sick and tired of people who thinks that they are the prettiest in the world,people who is an attention grabber,people who thinks that they are the pious of all humans...and not to forget people who always think that the world they live in will always follow their footsteps...
my experience is....
i care so much for all the little details of friendship...but somehow i fell sad because those friends never seem to get it that im always here for them...they would come and look for me when their eyebags are full of tears...but do they even remember me when their mouth are spilled with laughter.....call yourself pretty,when you can only be pretty physically,call yourself wealthy,when you can only be wealthy outside....but dont call yourself a friend when you cant even wipe the tears out of this eyes...........

written by...gloomyaida..

stay away from others to solve a prob?

dats wut pple think..by isolating themselves from public somehow can help them in solving their prob? how far it is true? i dont know..but for me,,,i dont see any relevance in here..daa,,why do we need to give them a free win and we give up? wake up guys... lets think why do they give a prob or play us a fool at the 1st place? dont take it negative but take it as a constructive thing to do...pple might call you HELL...pple might call you SHIT..but think why? bcoz they know uve da ability to be da best..to be da greAt..dats wut our pple 'malay' always do..condemns people without taking into account others feeling..supposedly we as a malay should work together to uphold and make a race looks better..not to be discriminator or else...but juz wanna let people realize and open their mind..we cant no longer depend on malay rights as everything could change by judging at our government system rite now..CHAOS...hey pple,,by condemning others,would it bring u to the next stage? yeah it would but is that the most noble way u can do to improve urself? lets broaden our mind..look at other races...do they act like us? do they work like us? do they socialize like us? its not dat i want to compare our pple wif da others,but we do need to observe....change if it need be..learn from experience and observation..dats a good thing instead of doing bad to others...i wonder wut happen in our community rite now...even if u spend rm2 for lunch..people might call u wif many harsh-word and laa laa laa...'hey dear,,rm2 at arkid....what a shame...no money...cheapscake?' Oh God... come on laa...everything is changing now...every single price of thing is increasing rite now..if u dont know how to use and spend ur money wisely,,,even a millionaire could close their business one day.,.idk..lets make thing easy..juz go wif the flow..let others do their jobs as comfort as they can..let others go through their daily life wif their own style...dont even dare or try to change others to be like u...others people,others behaviour or style..even hair looks alike....body-size looks alike..but who knows..heart and emotion....dats all..people think...

LET THE DREAM NEGLECTS DA REALITY

‘ I love you, but I cant be wif u’..is dat hard to accept someone to be loved and love ? it is quite confusing act when u love someone dat already had a sweetheart. Some might argue dat it is okay to love her although she is owned,but remember da limitations. Huh.. but I can say it is easier said than done. Once u ve gone through it,u ll know. I went through once until I felt like suicide… love can kill ? I don’t know. But love drives people crazy. Juz imagine,u ve been rejected by someone, but dat girl keep giving you hope ? u ve a boyfriend,but u still need me? Is dat what we so-called true love? Is dat hard to make a choice? U have two,so choose one. But take two if you are actually a woman is ridiculous .. remember people out there, man can have four, but u guys can only have one. Dats da fact,without denial. My friend fall in love wif A. but he could not take A,so he took A’s cousin. Is dat logical or is dat what we call desperate? Depends. I’m not dat expert in love-romance things. But I do have feeling towards it. Still searching and still admiring to have one.. Oh God, give me one. I need one.. hehehe.. I pray to God to give me a love but one question slipped out of my mind.. am I deserve to ask dat from God? Am I being loyal to my religion and the creation? Am I prayed 5 times a day without leaving it wif intention? Only I know da answer. Sometimes I feel like a small ant without any guidance from above.. is not dat He does not give me the guidance.but it is like im being forgetful and take everything for granted? So..whats more do you expect? Juz make things clear and easy.. go wif da flow and let time set everything. Then,u ll be okay..
Im being stupid and intoxicated…love…passion……. -chub-

what do i know about fashion....

Basically, i know nuthing... zilch... but i do know a thing or two about the importance of colour coordination and what clothes is right with what accesories... How could a clueless fashion disaster like me pull something like that, you ask? well, i'm not a big fan of fashion magazines (though i like watching celebrities getting praise or thrash for their fashion sense in 'GALAXIE'), but i like to play them... That is to say i like fashion games where you could dress them up in any clothes you want without ever have to hear the models complaining (LOL) or those games where you get to design, dress and photograph the model... such game is the 'Imagine Fashion Designer'... In this game, you take on the character Clara Willard and your aim is to get yourself up the fashion ladder to Fashion Star... Along the way, you could choose to do missions (where you dress up the model, make-up her face and photograph her) or you could choose to help the other characters in the game... Although it may seem a bit dull at first (especially for those people who like fast-paced,violent games like gta!), but after a while, you will uncover a plot about the company you're working in... and you will also find romance at the same time .... but there are other games you could tyr like 'Jojo's Fashion Show' where you dress the model up and get rated for your fashion style n 'Vogue Tales' where you design clothes for the satisfaction of your customers... Hey, it may sound a bit boring to u, but it's big where i am rite now... all n all, i like games n i am not ashamed 2 say that i like to play fashion games though i still don't get what i'm supposed to wear in real life!

Until next time,
mengmeng

what else can i say ( a moment to remind)

after reading the medical report of mr saiful..well..one thing came to my mind..do we really need arguement in making up our defence?? nothing is more hurtfull when we see people killing each other in the name of "politic need",,i dont agree with people who think that a state is just a piece of land govern by the government..well,,my beloved malaysia.wat had hapen tou you then?? if tunku abdul rahman still breathing rite now,.he will be crying every single moment cause he cant stand the air of dirty politic..same goes to onn jaafar and tun hussein....the problem getting wrse every single day..its like watching the soap opera then>...malaysia do had change alot..and i mean alot...with our smiling record of achievement...its a shame for us to have this kind of problem..we saw oher country struggle to make a stable community..but we?? every single person in us,,are trying hard to shake in off..why?? well..can they see what going to happen??? hello?? we are still young here?? we no you guys are experience enough on how to live and watsoever..but pleaseeeeeeee,,,do care bout us...really...i dont want to be bias to anyone...i just wanna be free,,,look at america,,yes..its not a good example for some people..but,,hey,,they dont have anythng serious and personal going on there..they develop in the sense that they really wanna they people to survive the rapid changing world...well,,i hope someone would rebutt this...watching how mr a n mr s debating...well..its not spposed to happen..cause its just wasting time and...hey,,u wanna be a nation,,,dont shoot people on their head,,thats rude...haha..well..people would say im a flowerish guy with my word..bt,,thats the thing...aa country should be a nation and not a piece of land...he government is the government and not the political party who won the election..we run along as teamates and not as rival...we talk as we are a friend and not a lover...we eat what we have but never eat each other.....love..armykew.,,

My real interest???

Well, one never really have a permanent interest in life except 4 some lucky ones... I am not one of the lucky ones 'cuz i still dunno what i wanna do with my life n i'm a uni student now! Can u believe it? Yes i do like art n design though more 2 art than design... But i also like other stuff... I like picking fights with my frenz 'cuz if i don't, people would probably cease 2 think i ever existed! Oh n i like writing too...tho i never really finish writing anything... except that one story... But i like 2 hear new ideas, so throw them at me n i'll try my best 2 come up with interesting stories...
written by: mengmeng...

is dat good to be loved ?

hey..'is dat good to be loved' ? i believe many of you will argue on diz statement...but yeah...i feel diz rite now..i've many friends..maybe bcoz of my behaviour n attitude...love to talk n easy-going people..love to make friends...everybody has friends...and there is no single definition of FRIEND..it depends on da individual to define it their way..have u ever felt like u were stuck in da middle and failed to make a decision ? huh...dats what i feel throughout my life...alwys feel guilty..been stabbed at the back by my GOOD FRIEND...oh GOD....my life is getting complicated and ............... CONTINUE LATER..GOT A CLASS....

no more respect !!!

hello...the headline would be very confusing...but think n look at our people rite now..new fatal phenomena is actually getting bigger and dangerous as there are no more respect...no more love..no more humanity...in our community...everybody is looking forward to be great..to look great...and perhaps to act great...but somehow it undermines the culture n tradition that has been practised by our ancestors...not to be rude or to be extremist but sorry to say...
malaysian people are getting rude day by day...and even there is a people who try to change the tradition n be a guidance to the leader...ushh...what the heck is happening...is that logical to say dat member of the organization want to set the direction of the organization and somehow undermine the leader's rite?...huh...
hey people..wake up...treat people like u hope to be treated...life would never be sucked if we go wif da flow...we do have freedom to speak..but daa...there is always the restriction towards it...u can speak..u can voice out ur opinions..but do respect your leader...who are you to lead? dont ask what people can do to you..but think..what u can do to the community...that would be better...hey reader,,u know what? there is one of my friend somehow argue wif the older n somehow wanna stick wif his ideology and egoistic without thinking rational..huh wtf...i dont know what to say...but plz people...do change before we will be labelling as people wif no manner...
written by : peacemaker...

peace of a hell in heaven

well..too excited...the first blog for a person who love to talk..

too many things happen lately in the sense on how human look and judge on the issues of human right and human needs for justice.people judge and the tell crap to others.stop being bussy body and let the scale talk by himself..

i do heard about one metaphore: " a cow wont let you take his milk unless he know that you had gave him some food and love them with your heart"

playing with other people feeling and grabbing their what so called right isnt that fun..i wonder why satan being put to hell??? and mr angel to heaven??? i do beleive in my religious said..but why people judge the world on how the see the world..god gave us brain rite??

the media...well..thats another think..i wonder..if media exist when the time eat adam eat the apple..well..we gonna hear lots of gossip then?? thank god "gossip girl" not even being invented,,or else...its going to be a joke then...i admit that media is like the air of the heaven..it blow every single news it can bring but it dont filter any.and i wonder..why we still need to believe?? making stupid quote like "the new baby is a twin".."she done it again"..or juat.."gay right:satan with them"...cant there be anything more intresting rather than showing the public how bad and ugly their skin really is??

i dont want to be a shadow who hide from the sun..i dont want to keep my child from knowing that im a true human that will kill other for food..but...i just want the people to let mother nature put the judgment on its show....she hadf gave a big effoert in decorating the stage and creating the character,,as what is said before...even ikn a hell..there must be a spot called a heaven..and a peacefull land of heaven..there will be a spot called hell...i need a nation that know what is a gold worth a penny and what is penny that worth a gold,,no need to keep telling the society mr is guilty for this and that..hey,,people good a brain?? you can put the most hot stuff on your face,,but ..by the end of the day...people will make their own decision...you can lead a horse to the water..but you cant force him to drink it up...

i hope ..mr satan and mr angel hear me..and stop fighting each other at the shoulder of a man..thats bad..and i mean hey guys?? both of you are immortal?? so..why still bugging to fight..both would live and neither would die..even in harry potter..miss rowling had put on a confussing twist ( i wish i was harry potter)

now..let us cheer the sky and hopping that nothing would fall down to earth..caused..hey hey...i still wanna have my graduation....so..for all the people out there..dgo and find your hell in heave..and fing your heaven in your hell...for me..i still searching for it..and praying that it will come..and i hope it would come..because i need it to come..and the coming of it..is my home coming session..

xoxoxo
peace of a hell in heaven
armyknew razif razikin zaienal ariffin